I read blogs for inspiration and ideas; there are a lot of creative people out there! I've learned a lot and found some great inspiration. But sometimes, after looking at all the perfect pictures and beautiful perfectly put together rooms it can be kind of defeating. Is this how everyone lives? My house is not anywhere near as perfect as some of the homes I see online, nor do I have every room in my house beautifully decorated. Am I missing something here?
So today at the risk of possibly losing some readers or irritating people by being extra wordy I wanted to join in on this Blog Honesty thing going around~
1. As I mentioned above my house is not kept in a continuous state of perfection. Truth: I hate cleaning. (My mom on the other hand loves cleaning- why I didn't inherit that trait I'll never know.) There are a million other things I'd rather be doing. So I don't clean everyday. And seriously- what's the point when I have a 2.5 year old messing up right behind me?
2. On that point, my house does not look like one out of a magazine shoot. It's not perfectly curated, all the rooms do not flow together in cohesive harmony. Nor do I think it ever will. Our house seems to be in a constant state of change. Those pictures I take of projects or rooms of my home- that corner looks great. But if I took a picture of the opposite corner you'd probably see a bunch of toy cars or some laundry I haven't gotten to. I mean- my dining room doesn't even have a dining table in it!
3. I love to DIY but I'm no expert- sometimes I wish I were. Sure I'm a trained Interior Designer- but they don't teach you any of the stuff I've done on this blog in school. Most of what I do is trial and error. And I hope that comes through in my posts- I try to be honest when I make a mistake or things go wrong. So if you try a project on your own you know what to expect. Though sometimes I know I gloss over the tough stuff and make is seem like a breeze. Sometimes things go smoothly and sometimes they don't. In the future I'll try to be completely upfront about how things go.
4. Here's a big one: I've had a hard time making the transition from working mom to stay at home mom. Of course I love staying home with the Con-Man. This time we have together is a gift I know many working women dream of. But there are days when I miss the hustle and bustle of an office, working with clients and architects to see a project through,sharing and coming up with ideas, going to the job site and getting dirty. I loved what I did and I miss it sometimes; ok more than sometimes a lot of the time. But I am grateful for this unique opportunity I have been given. Not only do I get to spend time with my son I've been able to accomplish a lot of big projects I may not have been able to do while working. This blog has helped keep me sane, it's my little escape from my everyday life so I am grateful for it as well.
5. Sometimes I worry that I spend to much time with my blog and on the computer in general. Am I spending enough time with the Con-Man? If I didn't have a blog would I clean more (See #1 above). It always seems that I am trying to find balance between things I want to do and the things I need to do. It's hard and I'm working on it.
Well there you have it. Some down and dirty stuff that has been on my mind for a while. Hopefully this little insight into my insecurities lets you know more of who I am and most of you have not run for the hills.